oh the drama

so thursday i went to see an old friend. it was nice catching up with him, and then we started having a conversation about how girls shouldn't be friends with guys who are married, or girls who are married shouldn't be friends with guys. i think that's a load of crap. but i kind of get it with this guy - i agree. nonetheless, it was sad to leave just cause i know that i'm not going to talk to this guy for a long time.

that was thursday night. friday morning HY leaves a message that he wants to have dinner with my parents and myself (i went home to visit my mom finally) on friday night. that's 8 hours of advance notice. not too much. i called my dad, and he told me it wouldn't happen. my mom was already upset i hadn't gone home in a long time, and bringing a boy into the equation wouldn't be the best. he wanted to call HY himself and explain, which i thought was nice. WELLLLL HY totally took it wrong, and now he's sooo angry because he feels rejected by my parents. sigh. it's too hard. i just need to figure out what i want and go with it. i can't make a decision. my father said the same thing - he said, "sometimes it seems like you know what you're doing, and most of the time it seems like you have no idea." i feel pulled in so many directions, and i'm so focussed (how the heck do you spell that?) on making sure the people around me aren't angry that i have no idea what i want. so be it. time will tell.

so if things go well between today and wednesday at work i may still be able to go to india!!!! it would be awesome. my boss is cool and said that he would pay both J and my cancellation fees. at least i don't have to worry about that. but life would be grand if i could just run away to Thailand and India!!

did y'all check out pandora.com yet? it's just fantastic.

so i also went to my "cousin"'s graduation party. i think we're related to them somehow but i have no idea how. so i just call her my cousin. i've known her since she was born. so it was very touching to see her graduate high school. she had a hard time in high school. she's an incredibly hard worker, but it just doesn't get through sometimes. so when i saw her, she started jumping up and down screaming, "I graduated high school!!! AND i'm going to COLLEGE!!!" it was hilarious. sweet thing she is. she's going to UC Santa Cruz. i'm totally visiting her. i was talking to my aunts there and they were giving me advice on how to meet boys. that's when you know you're in a rut. haha. i love it. i'm nearly 28, totally confused, and absolutely single. kind of. it's great. i think it's time to get new piercings...