can i keep him?

so i guess i haven't written any stories in awhile. couple things. auditioned and got into a band. really wierd band. but still fun and i get to sing again. turned 28. sucks. lots and lots of travelling. this weekend i'm going Reno for Sam's bachelor party (NOT as the entertainment) and some work. started swimming at lunch again. oh the crush i had for a second awhile ago? guy turns out to be an A$$. had a girlfriend for 3 1/2 years but doesn't tell me because he's just a jerk. and wants to see what he can get. lame. oh well. oh, and Karen moved back from Hawaii. yay =)

so this being single thing is odd. it's devastating and heart breaking that it has to be this way, but i guess the best thing to do is just to move forward as best i can. ultimately i need to be happy. i can't do that if the person i'm with is not happy. moving on seems like such a gargantuan task. how can you cut someone out of your life? you can't. it's too difficult. but i have to start the process otherwise i'll be waiting around forEVER for him to be happy. so i did. last week i went out to a bar (Circle Bar, of course) and just thought i was going to hang out with friends. i see this boy - he's adorable and you could tell he was shy, which made him all the more endearing. tall, very well built, cute face...wait a minute...too cute of a face. like baby cute. so, me being as forward and non-filtering as i am, tap him on the shoulder (WHILE he was talking to some other girl haha) and asked him how old he was. "23" sigh. too young. but HE said, "23, is that too old for you?" brownie points for making me feel young. ok, so i continue on my way the entire night, and would see him every now and then smiling at me. awww. so cute. so his roommate comes up to me and makes a case for Boy. he's smart, mature, blah blah. i said fine. i'll give you my number (by the way, i have NEVER given out my number at a bar) and you can give it to your little but adorable roommate.

so Boy calls me up a couple nights ago and invites me to go to a club. after some coaxing from friends, i decide to go and just have a fun time. Boy picks me up last night and takes me to an underground reggae club in echo park. first of all, i LOVE echo park/ silverlake area. i LOVE reggae. and it being underground just puts icing on the cake. a lot of icing. we didn't talk much (cause it was really great music) but oddly enough, Boy is also from Fremont. he's a surf instructor. but more importantly, he also boxes AND DOES TAEKWONDO. WHAT? are you kidding? those are my sports. kind of creepy - too many coincidences. but so super hot. adorable. buff. sweet. tall (at least 6'1"). oh wait. he's 23. still in school. sigh. can i keep him anyway?