ben vs romo

so my fantasy football team, suma's zoomas made it to the semi finals. ben vs tony. it's a tough call. with romo and jessica simpson, chances are he's going to be just as distracted as he was last week. and really? a thumb is that important? absolutely when you're a qb. he's had a great year, over 1000 yards more than ben, but i think it's time to put some trust in ben. and carolina and st. louis have crappy defense teams, so whatevers. i think it'll be fine to put ben in. it's tonight, so i don't have a lot of time to decide.

you know? in the middle of all this, i've totally ignored my basketball team. ugh. i knew that was going to happen. what to do.

i ran 4 miles the other night. unfortunately it was 3 days ago...geez, no 4 days ago. i'm going to take my shoes home so i can run everyday during christmas break. abstract season is too difficult to work out during.

we're having our white elephant thing today. i took a bottle of champagne. i wonder how popular it will be. white elephant reminds me of junior high days. getting picked for teams, where you're always the last one to be chosen. hey, it was hard being brown and a girl and skinny and smart back then. haha. glad to know some genes kicked in during high school regarding the athleticism. haha.

you know, i've always wondered what happened to carol le. she was very studious. i distinctly remember when she had a test and she was very very sick. she stopped in the middle (it was algebra 8th grade), went outside, threw up in the garbage can, came back in, and finished the test. WHAT?! she was amazing. anyway, this is my one moment that i will kick myself for forever. my one moment i wish i could take back. my one regret in life (i don't believe in regret, i think it's a waste of time, but THAT'S how bad i feel about this one). i remember we were all playing soccer in PE class. carol le was in my line. she put a big bright smile on her face, looked me dead in the eye, and said HI!!! with a big wave and an even bigger toothy grin. what did i do? ladies and gentlemen, i looked down and said nothing. this was...what? 7th grade? my least proud moment of my life i think. i don't know why i did that. i always talked to everyone during high school. i had popular friends, nerdy friends, jock friends, football friends, track friends, band friends...i had em all. why? because of that moment in 7th grade. seeing how that girl's face fell after i said nothing to her struck something in me. i think THAT was the moment i understood how a person can affect another human being. whether it be positively or negatively depended on the person. and i affected her so negatively. a few months later when i finally got the nerve to talk to her again (i felt too guilty for so long), she wanted nothing to do with me or anyone else for that matter. she was a loner, and she stayed that way until she moved high schools. i can't believe that girl chose me to reach out to. and how i just let her down. i've tried to find her since, but to no avail. so sad. i am ashamed.