Hellen's dad passed away on monday morning. my heart goes out to her...
i can't take work anymore. it's suffocating. well, i prolly feel that way because i had thai food for lunch and i feel so full i need to sleep. JD can't work out again tonight because he has a work thing. i'm so relieved because now i go home and sleep. ah sleep.
so i'm applying to USC for early decision. i hope i get in. i find out october 1. if i'm granted an interview.
i finally talked to Darlene last night! i called her on the regular line, so it was some ridiculous amount per minute, but i didn't care. i called her at 8pm my time, and i thought it was a 10 hour difference, but it was only an 8 hour difference. 4am she gets a call from me! but we hadn't talked in months so i don't think she cared. then i had a brilliant idea of running to the gas station to get a calling card. i go the one next to my place but they didnt' have any and sent me to a place ''2 blocks away." it was actually a good 1/2 a mile there, so i ran (in my flip flops) and bought 2 calling cards for $5 each. i run back home and call her, and was informed i should have 30 minutes to talk. after 8 minutes i run out of time. WHAT!? so much for that. the second card was even shorter. i gave up and just called her for an HOUR AND A HALF with the regular phone. oh well. totally worth it. we chatted and chatted (remember it's 4am for her) until i had to go to sleep (which i didn't get to do anyway). but now we finally have the right emails for each other and we can keep in touch that way. we've also decided we're going to talk on the phone at least once a week.
JD calls me at 10:30 and wants me to go out cause it's his roommate Janine's birthday. she's cool, so i go. she's crazy. she's a nonstop talker, even worse than i am. JD tried to take pics of us, but in every pic, Janine either looked pissed or i looked stoned (the flash was too bright so i couldn't keep my eyes open!). we couldn't do it and gave up. Janine ran off to be social and JD and i got into this discussion about relationships and what not. 12:30 rolls around and i'm practically falling asleep at the bar. on the way home JD gets in and out (funniest thing. we were originally supposed to go to sushi for Janine's bday dinner. she takes so long getting ready. i get a text from JD that he's eating triscuits and cheese. soooo funny). finally get in bed around 1 something and am out like a light.
so fun times - Jolene and Shirin are visiting me next weekend! i can't wait! i've never had both of them visit, so it should be a blast!! there's this park across the street from me that's kind of a Mexican park cause there are a lot of Latina people that go there. it's awesome because the people with the carts of food are everywhere. HY and i went on saturday and we had a full mango with lime, chili, and salt. sooo good. and he also had elote, which is corn with mayo, parmesean cheese, and chili. for a buck. awesome. i think Jolene would love that.
so Karen, Linda can't get us the hotel for Vegas anymore. we need to find our own. and i don't know if she's able to go. her mom was supposed to get the hotel, but her mom is unexpectedly leaving for iran. i'll look today to see what i can find...
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Crush
so i hate Michael Vic. it's sick what he's done to the pit bulls. i want to pull out each of his fingernails, hang him by his skin, and keep him alive while i do other tortorous things to him. can't stand people who abuse innocent animals. can't stand them. i would have no problem hurting those people. it makes me so angry that i can't control my rage. and he was such a good player too. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
anyway, i have a crush on someone. it's so fun - this stage where you're just getting to know each other. i'll leave it at that. but it's fun =)
i've been so busy this week. on monday night i had Lindsay and Eric over for dinner and a movie (we saw King of Scotland which was a great movie. Forrest Whitaker was very scary!). last night they invited me to a Dodgers game (it was horrible - they lost against the Phillies which is one of the worst teams in the league). i ate way too many nachos and might be off nachos for at least a week.
not much else. i have work tonight so i'll be home near 10ish. boo.
anyway, i have a crush on someone. it's so fun - this stage where you're just getting to know each other. i'll leave it at that. but it's fun =)
i've been so busy this week. on monday night i had Lindsay and Eric over for dinner and a movie (we saw King of Scotland which was a great movie. Forrest Whitaker was very scary!). last night they invited me to a Dodgers game (it was horrible - they lost against the Phillies which is one of the worst teams in the league). i ate way too many nachos and might be off nachos for at least a week.
not much else. i have work tonight so i'll be home near 10ish. boo.
Monday, July 16, 2007
Dressed in Black
haven't written in a week. bittersweet days. Judy came on Wednesday morning. she just spent time at home while i was at work. we went shopping for some stuff she needed and had barney's hamburgers and curly fries. yum. she bought these sexy silver shoes and a cute black dress. on thursday i took a half day off (which i totally paid for on friday) and watched step up. such a fun dance movie. because of the movie we were totally pumped up to go to Circle Bar.
so that whole day my car was shaking. i remember it happened before and i remembered it was because something was unplugged or loose or something. we were a little concerned as we decided to drive all the way to Hollywood to get a Benito's burrito. we almost drove to my Hi Point location so i could look for the chilli relleno's that cyrus had the week before. but because of traffic we decided against it. but the car was definitely shaking. also, i badly needed an oil change. so as we were driving back on thursday (with out burritos), we were looking EVERYWHERE for an oil change place. nowhere. none. i almost gave up when right NEXT DOOR to my apt is a shell station that had a mechanic, smog check, and an oil change place. awesome. so we dropped my car off and walked back to my apt and ate our super delicious burritos. i ate the entire thing and i think i gained 28 pounds because of it. it was awesome. so we watched step up and then walked back to get my car. still shaking. oil change didn't help.
so like i said, because of step up we decided we were going to circle bar to shake our booties. i tried my hand at being a mechanic on the way there (the gas station guy thought we were nuts since we were in clubbing outfits but totally greasy from being under the hood). nothing worked. i found something that was a little loose, but it didn't work at all. i decided the shaking wouldn't hurt the car so we drove to Santa Monica to go dancing.
dancing was fun (as usual). JD, Yemen, and this girl Ja we met a few weeks earlier came as well. as usual i pulled out some 80s moves during the 80s songs. it was fun. made some Japanese friends. Toki and Toni or something like that. they were cute and fun.
i dropped my car off the next morning to get it fixed and found out it was a loose spark plug causing a misfire in the 2nd cylinder. $140. ugh. but now it doesn't shake.
friday night we went to Asia de Cuba for a business dinner with some Italian docs. i didn't know what to talk about with them so i played the "teach me Italian" card. worked like a charm. one of the St Jude marketing guys from Italy kept telling me he wants me to visit him in Italy. sooo funny. here's the email he wrote:
I want organize your holiday in Italy in August,it's possible you'll arrive in Italy august 11 and you 'll depart august 20
We 'll go in fantastic place ,eat
delicious food and drink fine wine
Ciao
Gio
His name is Giochinno Iannola. hilarious. but the food was phenomenal. awesome. fantastic. and expensive. we went to sky bar afterwards. neither judy nor i were impressed. it was just a bunch of rather unattractive people dressing like skanks.
saturday i dropped her off. sooooo sad. so bummed. so burned out. no vacation for me though. i went to the Lemus' and just hung out. on the way there i talked to Deeps for a few hours. too much drama with boys. but whatevers. oh - he took 3 kids to nationals. one of them got bronze (red belt) and the other got gold (red belt). pretty cool. the kid got bronze because he back kicked the other kid in the face and the other kid got knocked out. because of their age, they took a full point off. crazy!!!! but he's going to be awesome next year. they're going to do well as black belts. can't wait.
yesterday i watched apocolypto. loved it. intense movie. it was good.
so that was my weekend. been a little down lately. i think things aren't in my control and i want other things to go a little differently. but life isn't that easy. HY's bro wants to have lunch with me. i don't want to discuss anything yet. i'm not ready. perhaps i just need to find someone else and just let go. but like i said, life's not that easy.
so that whole day my car was shaking. i remember it happened before and i remembered it was because something was unplugged or loose or something. we were a little concerned as we decided to drive all the way to Hollywood to get a Benito's burrito. we almost drove to my Hi Point location so i could look for the chilli relleno's that cyrus had the week before. but because of traffic we decided against it. but the car was definitely shaking. also, i badly needed an oil change. so as we were driving back on thursday (with out burritos), we were looking EVERYWHERE for an oil change place. nowhere. none. i almost gave up when right NEXT DOOR to my apt is a shell station that had a mechanic, smog check, and an oil change place. awesome. so we dropped my car off and walked back to my apt and ate our super delicious burritos. i ate the entire thing and i think i gained 28 pounds because of it. it was awesome. so we watched step up and then walked back to get my car. still shaking. oil change didn't help.
so like i said, because of step up we decided we were going to circle bar to shake our booties. i tried my hand at being a mechanic on the way there (the gas station guy thought we were nuts since we were in clubbing outfits but totally greasy from being under the hood). nothing worked. i found something that was a little loose, but it didn't work at all. i decided the shaking wouldn't hurt the car so we drove to Santa Monica to go dancing.
dancing was fun (as usual). JD, Yemen, and this girl Ja we met a few weeks earlier came as well. as usual i pulled out some 80s moves during the 80s songs. it was fun. made some Japanese friends. Toki and Toni or something like that. they were cute and fun.
i dropped my car off the next morning to get it fixed and found out it was a loose spark plug causing a misfire in the 2nd cylinder. $140. ugh. but now it doesn't shake.
friday night we went to Asia de Cuba for a business dinner with some Italian docs. i didn't know what to talk about with them so i played the "teach me Italian" card. worked like a charm. one of the St Jude marketing guys from Italy kept telling me he wants me to visit him in Italy. sooo funny. here's the email he wrote:
I want organize your holiday in Italy in August,it's possible you'll arrive in Italy august 11 and you 'll depart august 20
We 'll go in fantastic place ,eat
delicious food and drink fine wine
Ciao
Gio
His name is Giochinno Iannola. hilarious. but the food was phenomenal. awesome. fantastic. and expensive. we went to sky bar afterwards. neither judy nor i were impressed. it was just a bunch of rather unattractive people dressing like skanks.
saturday i dropped her off. sooooo sad. so bummed. so burned out. no vacation for me though. i went to the Lemus' and just hung out. on the way there i talked to Deeps for a few hours. too much drama with boys. but whatevers. oh - he took 3 kids to nationals. one of them got bronze (red belt) and the other got gold (red belt). pretty cool. the kid got bronze because he back kicked the other kid in the face and the other kid got knocked out. because of their age, they took a full point off. crazy!!!! but he's going to be awesome next year. they're going to do well as black belts. can't wait.
yesterday i watched apocolypto. loved it. intense movie. it was good.
so that was my weekend. been a little down lately. i think things aren't in my control and i want other things to go a little differently. but life isn't that easy. HY's bro wants to have lunch with me. i don't want to discuss anything yet. i'm not ready. perhaps i just need to find someone else and just let go. but like i said, life's not that easy.
Monday, July 9, 2007
The perfectly wrong weekend
so on thursday night Amy ended up being too tired to go out. i can't say i minded much. i was exhausted and just ended up going to sleep. it was nice to sleep. i love to sleep. haha. on friday night Robin, Rami, Hellen, and HY came over. i kept calling Robin and Rami Robbie and Ramen. soooo funny. we ordered indian food and ate in my garden. it's beautiful out there. and at times i feel like it's my own because no one's ever out there. we then went to a coffee shop. they wanted to hang out more but i was still tired. ended up just going to sleep. i love to sleep. but i love to play too so i was torn.
anyway the next day HY and i went to Zuma beach and Camarillo outlets. i know it was probably bad to spend the day with him but we had the most amazing and fun time. it was sooooo relaxed and he was being funny and we didn't fight and we didn't talk about the business at all. it was just perfect. we both found great things at the outlets. they wouldn't let people in the water at the beach - we didn't know what was going on, but regardless, neither of us are the sun bathing type (the beach is meant to go to in the water) so we left. on the way home we got pedicures (i made him get one too. it was funny, but i think he secretly enjoyed the massage and pampering. i told him we'd have to go to a different place next time and he didn't say much, making me think he actually wants to go. cute.). we went to this sushi place down the street which ended up being pretty good. again, we had a great time and at until we couldn't eat anymore. we rented Pursuit of Happyness, King of Scotland, and Tiger in the Woods (which is like A Life is Beautiful with the same actor but about Iraq). HY fell asleep through P of H, and I fell asleep through K of S. we both loved our movies, so one of these days we'll have to switch.
sunday morning i was supposed to go to the beach with JD and the 2 dogs, but Max was too tired. Max is the dog by the way. so i went to Redondo beach with HY and his parents to eat seafood. i tried cracking a crab leg (i used chopsticks so i wouldn't have to touch it), and i was actually pretty good at it! i ate corn, french fries, and some rice. obviously at a seafood place, there wasn't much for me to eat, but i was plenty satisfied. HY's dad wanted sunglasses so we went to the mall to try to find some, but couldn't find any to his liking. they dropped me off, and i went to lift weights with JD. Afterwards we went to Trader Joe's and got enough food for an army it seemed like. i made pasta sauce (i don't think JD liked it because he doesn't like rosemary or onions, both of which were in my sauce but he ate it anyway) and mozzerella salad (tomato, fresh moz, lime juice, salt, pepper) and he made great garlic bread. yum.
sigh. back to monday. i'm so excited though because Judy's coming on wednesday! i just can't WAIT. time to play lots more!!!!
anyway the next day HY and i went to Zuma beach and Camarillo outlets. i know it was probably bad to spend the day with him but we had the most amazing and fun time. it was sooooo relaxed and he was being funny and we didn't fight and we didn't talk about the business at all. it was just perfect. we both found great things at the outlets. they wouldn't let people in the water at the beach - we didn't know what was going on, but regardless, neither of us are the sun bathing type (the beach is meant to go to in the water) so we left. on the way home we got pedicures (i made him get one too. it was funny, but i think he secretly enjoyed the massage and pampering. i told him we'd have to go to a different place next time and he didn't say much, making me think he actually wants to go. cute.). we went to this sushi place down the street which ended up being pretty good. again, we had a great time and at until we couldn't eat anymore. we rented Pursuit of Happyness, King of Scotland, and Tiger in the Woods (which is like A Life is Beautiful with the same actor but about Iraq). HY fell asleep through P of H, and I fell asleep through K of S. we both loved our movies, so one of these days we'll have to switch.
sunday morning i was supposed to go to the beach with JD and the 2 dogs, but Max was too tired. Max is the dog by the way. so i went to Redondo beach with HY and his parents to eat seafood. i tried cracking a crab leg (i used chopsticks so i wouldn't have to touch it), and i was actually pretty good at it! i ate corn, french fries, and some rice. obviously at a seafood place, there wasn't much for me to eat, but i was plenty satisfied. HY's dad wanted sunglasses so we went to the mall to try to find some, but couldn't find any to his liking. they dropped me off, and i went to lift weights with JD. Afterwards we went to Trader Joe's and got enough food for an army it seemed like. i made pasta sauce (i don't think JD liked it because he doesn't like rosemary or onions, both of which were in my sauce but he ate it anyway) and mozzerella salad (tomato, fresh moz, lime juice, salt, pepper) and he made great garlic bread. yum.
sigh. back to monday. i'm so excited though because Judy's coming on wednesday! i just can't WAIT. time to play lots more!!!!
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Celebrating my independence
work was crazy as usual on monday and tuesday. but what becomes a little more interesting is tuesday night. i went out with JD and his friends. told them i'd be a good wing woman, so when we got there i made friends with these 3 cute girls. i did my job, so i spent the rest of the night enjoying myself. lots of boys there but again no one sparked my interest enough. so the boy that JD gave my number to showed up. i played it off as "sorry i didn't call you back - i'm so glad you came out tonight so we could talk in person instead of on the phone." haha. oops. his name's Aric which is like Eric with an A. just hung out, danced, played, laughed at Cyrus' 'game' on trying to get girls numbers (basically he's totally obnoxious. some girls think it's annoying and some think it's so over the top that it's kind of funny and charming) and hung out with Yemen. fun people. so at the end some boy that i didn't see the whole night comes up to me (when we're saying bye to everyone) and holds both my hands and says i really want to get to know you better. i was hoping we could hang out tonight. again, i tried to play it off giving him the hint that i'm not interested. finally i resort to my old tactics and tell him he's got to ask my bodyguard JD. he looks over and says,"him? oh he's cool with it i already asked." !! haha. i said how about next time. so funny. got home at 3 or something like that, and just went to bed.
the next morning i woke up at 7 and i am exhausted! i hate not being able to sleep in. i gave up trying to stay up at around 9 and just took a nap until 11:30. then i just talked to various people trying to figure out what i wanted to do (and talking to Karen to decide) and finally rolled out of bed around 2:00. also told Judy that we can't go =( i was soooo sad. ended up going to the beach with Cyrus, Yemen, and that guy Aric. he ended up being really cool. and tall. didn't realize that before. anyway, the plan was that i was going to pick up Cyrus at his place and then go get Yemen. i get there and call his phone. nothing. doesn't pick up. why woudln't you pick up the phone when you know someone's there to pick you up?! ok, he's peeing or something. i give it 3 or 4 minutes, and call again. nothing. ok, perhaps he's pooing. so i give it 6 or 7 minutes. call again. nothing. now i'm getting pissed, so i call JD and tell him i'm getting irritated and i'm about to leave. Cyrus calls me 30 seconds later (JD called him and yelled at him) and finally he comes out. He's wearing a blue shirt and khaki shorts. with a big red splotch on it. turns out he spilled red wine on himeself (!!). so he has to go BACK AND CHANGE. i was sooo annoyed, but let it go. i ended up being there for 30 or so minutes.
we finally get to Yemen's place and Aric drives us to the beach. they stop at the liqour store, and Cyrus comes back out with this amazing chilli relleno that he got from the liquor store (who knew they had hot food?) it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tasty i can't even stop thinkign about it. they totally made fun of me cause i ate most of it. yup, i owe him some food. maybe i'll make them brownies cause they've been so nice to me or something. anyway, we hung out with JD at his new girl's friend's beach house. i decide to go to the beach to try my hand at body surfing. somehow the nice sunglasses i bought in Maui fell out of my bag. i realized it 40 minutes or so later, and asked around. a girl said she saw someone pick up black sunglasses and took them =( so sad. oh well. easy come easy go, right? so this morning i called the sunglass hut because they told me if i scratched it or something they would give me half off if i rebought the glasses. but you had to send in the old ones (because people can lie about losing the glasses etc) it was a guy on the phone, and i explained what happened. he sounded young and kind of flirted and laughed about the story, and then he said he would give me half off to replace the lost glasses! he's just goign to write a report to his manager or something. who knows what he's doign but yay! sometimes being a girl helps...
after that we went to my cousin's pad in Santa Monica to his party. we see him on the street and he says he's goign to go get some stuff because they're running out of drinks or something. we go up, and 2 hours later, he still hasn't shown up. what the? and besides, they're definitely not running out of anything anytime soon. there are plenty of things to drink, eat, etc. i ask his roommate Joe where he went, and he goes, "yup, he's gone. went to a Malibu party." well, how the heck did he get there? his car's engine died, so he didn't even have a mode of transportation. i get a page from him at midnight that says "hooking up with a girl. call you tomorrow" sooo funny. crazy crazy boy. anyway, i get home and crash since i had to work this morning. such a teaser - to play all day long because it's a holiday only to have to go to work the next day. but at least tomorrow's friday. i think i'm going out with Amy tonight so maybe i'll have more fun stories tomorrow.
the next morning i woke up at 7 and i am exhausted! i hate not being able to sleep in. i gave up trying to stay up at around 9 and just took a nap until 11:30. then i just talked to various people trying to figure out what i wanted to do (and talking to Karen to decide) and finally rolled out of bed around 2:00. also told Judy that we can't go =( i was soooo sad. ended up going to the beach with Cyrus, Yemen, and that guy Aric. he ended up being really cool. and tall. didn't realize that before. anyway, the plan was that i was going to pick up Cyrus at his place and then go get Yemen. i get there and call his phone. nothing. doesn't pick up. why woudln't you pick up the phone when you know someone's there to pick you up?! ok, he's peeing or something. i give it 3 or 4 minutes, and call again. nothing. ok, perhaps he's pooing. so i give it 6 or 7 minutes. call again. nothing. now i'm getting pissed, so i call JD and tell him i'm getting irritated and i'm about to leave. Cyrus calls me 30 seconds later (JD called him and yelled at him) and finally he comes out. He's wearing a blue shirt and khaki shorts. with a big red splotch on it. turns out he spilled red wine on himeself (!!). so he has to go BACK AND CHANGE. i was sooo annoyed, but let it go. i ended up being there for 30 or so minutes.
we finally get to Yemen's place and Aric drives us to the beach. they stop at the liqour store, and Cyrus comes back out with this amazing chilli relleno that he got from the liquor store (who knew they had hot food?) it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tasty i can't even stop thinkign about it. they totally made fun of me cause i ate most of it. yup, i owe him some food. maybe i'll make them brownies cause they've been so nice to me or something. anyway, we hung out with JD at his new girl's friend's beach house. i decide to go to the beach to try my hand at body surfing. somehow the nice sunglasses i bought in Maui fell out of my bag. i realized it 40 minutes or so later, and asked around. a girl said she saw someone pick up black sunglasses and took them =( so sad. oh well. easy come easy go, right? so this morning i called the sunglass hut because they told me if i scratched it or something they would give me half off if i rebought the glasses. but you had to send in the old ones (because people can lie about losing the glasses etc) it was a guy on the phone, and i explained what happened. he sounded young and kind of flirted and laughed about the story, and then he said he would give me half off to replace the lost glasses! he's just goign to write a report to his manager or something. who knows what he's doign but yay! sometimes being a girl helps...
after that we went to my cousin's pad in Santa Monica to his party. we see him on the street and he says he's goign to go get some stuff because they're running out of drinks or something. we go up, and 2 hours later, he still hasn't shown up. what the? and besides, they're definitely not running out of anything anytime soon. there are plenty of things to drink, eat, etc. i ask his roommate Joe where he went, and he goes, "yup, he's gone. went to a Malibu party." well, how the heck did he get there? his car's engine died, so he didn't even have a mode of transportation. i get a page from him at midnight that says "hooking up with a girl. call you tomorrow" sooo funny. crazy crazy boy. anyway, i get home and crash since i had to work this morning. such a teaser - to play all day long because it's a holiday only to have to go to work the next day. but at least tomorrow's friday. i think i'm going out with Amy tonight so maybe i'll have more fun stories tomorrow.
Monday, July 2, 2007
oh the drama
so thursday i went to see an old friend. it was nice catching up with him, and then we started having a conversation about how girls shouldn't be friends with guys who are married, or girls who are married shouldn't be friends with guys. i think that's a load of crap. but i kind of get it with this guy - i agree. nonetheless, it was sad to leave just cause i know that i'm not going to talk to this guy for a long time.
that was thursday night. friday morning HY leaves a message that he wants to have dinner with my parents and myself (i went home to visit my mom finally) on friday night. that's 8 hours of advance notice. not too much. i called my dad, and he told me it wouldn't happen. my mom was already upset i hadn't gone home in a long time, and bringing a boy into the equation wouldn't be the best. he wanted to call HY himself and explain, which i thought was nice. WELLLLL HY totally took it wrong, and now he's sooo angry because he feels rejected by my parents. sigh. it's too hard. i just need to figure out what i want and go with it. i can't make a decision. my father said the same thing - he said, "sometimes it seems like you know what you're doing, and most of the time it seems like you have no idea." i feel pulled in so many directions, and i'm so focussed (how the heck do you spell that?) on making sure the people around me aren't angry that i have no idea what i want. so be it. time will tell.
so if things go well between today and wednesday at work i may still be able to go to india!!!! it would be awesome. my boss is cool and said that he would pay both J and my cancellation fees. at least i don't have to worry about that. but life would be grand if i could just run away to Thailand and India!!
did y'all check out pandora.com yet? it's just fantastic.
so i also went to my "cousin"'s graduation party. i think we're related to them somehow but i have no idea how. so i just call her my cousin. i've known her since she was born. so it was very touching to see her graduate high school. she had a hard time in high school. she's an incredibly hard worker, but it just doesn't get through sometimes. so when i saw her, she started jumping up and down screaming, "I graduated high school!!! AND i'm going to COLLEGE!!!" it was hilarious. sweet thing she is. she's going to UC Santa Cruz. i'm totally visiting her. i was talking to my aunts there and they were giving me advice on how to meet boys. that's when you know you're in a rut. haha. i love it. i'm nearly 28, totally confused, and absolutely single. kind of. it's great. i think it's time to get new piercings...
that was thursday night. friday morning HY leaves a message that he wants to have dinner with my parents and myself (i went home to visit my mom finally) on friday night. that's 8 hours of advance notice. not too much. i called my dad, and he told me it wouldn't happen. my mom was already upset i hadn't gone home in a long time, and bringing a boy into the equation wouldn't be the best. he wanted to call HY himself and explain, which i thought was nice. WELLLLL HY totally took it wrong, and now he's sooo angry because he feels rejected by my parents. sigh. it's too hard. i just need to figure out what i want and go with it. i can't make a decision. my father said the same thing - he said, "sometimes it seems like you know what you're doing, and most of the time it seems like you have no idea." i feel pulled in so many directions, and i'm so focussed (how the heck do you spell that?) on making sure the people around me aren't angry that i have no idea what i want. so be it. time will tell.
so if things go well between today and wednesday at work i may still be able to go to india!!!! it would be awesome. my boss is cool and said that he would pay both J and my cancellation fees. at least i don't have to worry about that. but life would be grand if i could just run away to Thailand and India!!
did y'all check out pandora.com yet? it's just fantastic.
so i also went to my "cousin"'s graduation party. i think we're related to them somehow but i have no idea how. so i just call her my cousin. i've known her since she was born. so it was very touching to see her graduate high school. she had a hard time in high school. she's an incredibly hard worker, but it just doesn't get through sometimes. so when i saw her, she started jumping up and down screaming, "I graduated high school!!! AND i'm going to COLLEGE!!!" it was hilarious. sweet thing she is. she's going to UC Santa Cruz. i'm totally visiting her. i was talking to my aunts there and they were giving me advice on how to meet boys. that's when you know you're in a rut. haha. i love it. i'm nearly 28, totally confused, and absolutely single. kind of. it's great. i think it's time to get new piercings...
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